solipsism

Hi, its me. Im not sure if theres anything else i can say to you that hasn’t already been said but i guess maybe it’s wishful thinking that you hearing me say it instead of reading it over a text will have some sort of effect or an impact enough that you’ll talk to me. I don’t think that I’ve done anything to warrant you completely disappearing and ghosting on me like this, and even if you do want to cut contact the least you could do is give me an explanation. I thought i meant more to you than that, you made it seem as though you valued me being a part of your life. And I value you in mine too. I know its only been a few short weeks and i guess the reason why I’m having such a hard time letting go and that i don’t want to give up is that i got vulnerable with you so fast and i thought that meant something. Ive tried to give you a little space and time to clear your head but fuck if you could just give me anything, a phone call, a text so i know where you’re at and so i can understand why you’re making the choices that you are i would really appreciate it. Im worried about you. I know you’re the type of person that gets so trapped in your own thoughts that its like poison to your overall well being and i don’t want you to be alone in that. I think you’ve hit a roadblock in getting outside of yourself and yeah it sucks but its going to happen. Its not all going to be smooth sailing. The minute that shit gets fucked up you can’t just isolate yourself from the ones who care the most about you. If you let others perception of you dictate your behaviour, then you will never grow as a person. Ok I’m just rambling at this point now and despite how fuckin pissed i am at you that you would do this, I’m still open for discussion and really would like if we could talk about this. Please, please just call me back, text me whatever. I hope youre okay. Bye